1. |
darkness
03:01
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i wanna be a far out satellite
so i can hear your brain waves coming
i wanna be a hubble telescope
so i can see you microscopic
i wanna be a blood test with all of
the checks in all the boxes
i wanna be a smart phone with the
face detection fingerprint scanner
i wanna be the black hole that’ll
tear us into darkness oh i want
to be the darkness oh i want to
be the darkness oh i want
to be the darkness oh i
want to be the dark
ness oh i want to
be the darkness
if i could be a nest for all your
suicidal ideation
if i could just reflect all of your
self destruction and complacence
i wanna be a black hole i can
pull apart electrons oh if
i could be a lightbulb i’d
explode the moment you install it
i wanna see your black soul oh i
want it all i wanna be the darkness oh i
want to be the darkness oh i want
to be the darkness oh i want to
be the darkness oh
i pray for it
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2. |
dancing
02:54
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i am myself a shelter
my own personal hell girl
there’s no other place i can go
inside i am unbounded
constantly unraveling
there must be a place i can go
cuz i want to be going
infinitely going
go forever inwards outwards anywhere
i need you
to be my choreographer
dance the moves laid out for her
don’t hold back i’ll move however you want me to
i am my own dancer
my own private dancer
i will do whatever i’m told
i won’t disobey her
i’ll never betray her
i will do whatever i’m told
but i am disappointing
i am self appointed
i will ruin everything i love but
i need you
to be my choreographer
dance until everything hurts
i can take it i am stronger than you think
i am sick
of dancing by myself at night
i will learn how to take flight
you could come with me
if you wanted to
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3. |
happiness
04:03
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i want love
i’m not above it
no denying anymore
i want love for you too
happiness nurturing
understanding holding touching
i want life while i’m alive
i’m not lying, not this time
i want life with less pain
with no suffering, no more hungering
no more borders, needless torture
hold my hand, i can’t stand it
if you want me, fuck this waiting
let’s escape this loneliness
if you’re ready
i am here
lay your body
on my body
i can hold you
breathe my breath
kissing your neck
fuck to death
if you wanted
la la la anyway just a thought
i’m embarrassed ignore me
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4. |
leaving
03:58
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i’m about 18
the world’s noisiest street
the voices cut right through the trucks and cars
i haven’t been to sleep
in probably a week
someday i find you and find my heart
get better now and then
pink pills at 8 pm
yea people come and go
but always leaving always leaving
always leaving always leaving
always leaving always leaving
always leaving always leaving
always leaving always leaving
always leav...
i’ll replace all of my thoughts
cuz i know they’ll just get caught
there’s no one around tonight
and i don’t feel alright
i’ve been down so long
i never thought i’d come back up
and all of a sudden i’m in love
and then it’s over then it’s over
then it’s over then it’s over
then it’s over then it’s over
then it’s over then it’s over
then it’s over then it’s over
then it’s over
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5. |
hurting
03:27
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the nerve pinched in my neck
is sending needles down my arm
primary victims left two fingers
hand half working do no harm
tiny bleeding stomach shredding
particles that numb my head
sometimes what you think will help you
fucks you up instead
give me every surgery
i wanna resurrect
bodies i do not know
people i have not met
carve out any cartilage
that could lead me to myself
sometimes pain will fuck you up
and sometimes it can help
lonely pulsing near convulsing throbbing innerspace
in my body i’m revolting folding interlaced
i will train my bones and muscles to do as they’re told
reconcile all of my sections before i am old
fool receptors free endorphins block the reuptake
sometimes you think pain will help you
but you make mistakes
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6. |
word
02:00
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i don’t care what you call me
use your words
clear your throat for me
bless your soul
where you’ll be
there’s no word for it
where we’ll go
there’s no word for it
there’s no word for it
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7. |
hopeless
01:51
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i know it all feels wrong
and it’s eating at your soul
your heart once filled with love is stuck
always thought it’d be enough
but no, it aint, it aint, it aint, it aint, never was
always falling short of what you want
remember to recharge your hope
when your battery gets low
cuz nobody’s gonna do that for you
and it’s not their job to
no it’s not, it’s not, it’s not, it’s not, never was
always falling short of what you want
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8. |
loving
03:54
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9. |
closeness
02:10
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the violent outside
wants me to die
a big long sigh
forever rolling eye
love my body
fall upon me
hi from within
i will forgive
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10. |
bearing
06:10
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embracing through window frames
i am warm by her username
discordant harmony
going back and forth endlessly
i’m barely alive, you’re barely alive
i’m barely alive, you’re barely alive
tangled in internet
playing fake instruments
singing each other songs
dragging our bodies along
barely alive, just barely alive
i’m barely alive, just barely alive
sleep cycle desyncing
our unsynchronised swimming
pilot light flickering
poison air rippling
holding our breath
waiting for sparks
and then suddenly fireworks
tender explosions
across every ocean
across every ocean
across every ocean
across every ocean
we’re more than just shapes
what our structures can take
we’re more than just cages
for repeating phrases
for rotting in stasis
for rupturing airways
for running away
for bleeding in pain
we’re bearing a light
unbearable life
we’re bearing a light
unbearable life
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11. |
hoping
02:43
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i will fall in love with anyone i want within
five to ten km of the place i’m living in
this financial year stability prevailing
i will change my life to the rhythm of other’s lives
i can reset myself
i’m hoping
i can fall in love with the thought of falling in love
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12. |
data
03:00
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hold it on your servers
hold it on your drives
mydata
hold me up in your folders
hold me up in the sky
mydata
pull me out of the river
pull me up to the clouds
mydata
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katie dey Melbourne, Australia
k80dey at gmail dot com
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